How do I not give up as a Christian?

I’m genuinely lost right now.

I want to give up so much right now.

I don’t feel the things I see other happy Christians talk about.

I’m depressed, lonely, always struggling financially. I can’t seem to be ok for too long.

I’ve prayed. Read scripture. Talked to God. All the things that everyone says you are supposed to do. I can’t drive, so I’m not able to get to church.

I feel like “what’s the point?” That’s where I’m at.

I’ve been a believer for 35 years (my entire life) and I feel like I’m unheard by God.

The thing is, I don’t want to give up. But I’m tired. Exhausted.

I have a two year old. Single parent. He’s my motivation to keep going. To keep believing. But I’m on a thin thread.

This was mostly a rant. Asking for prayers and maybe to hear testimonies of those who how I’m feeling.