So I just had my 30th birthday… and I am still saving myself for marriage. It has been feeling like a waste for the last few years because on one hand every man I have dated has chosen another woman over me because she was willing to sleep with them immediately. The other hurtful thing I have witnessed is the women who I have met and have witnessed them confessing to being promiscuous, all have gotten married ( and some of them have confessed to continuing to be promiscuous even after the wedding). I get that we are to not compare ourselves to others as Gods plans work out as He wills and we dont ever know the true full story of other peoples lives, but I cant help but think ” maybe if I would have lost my virginity at 16 like everyone else, I would have the marriage I want too”. I know thats a stupid thought, but like I said each time I try to date a guy, he ends up rejecting me and admitting its because the other woman is willing to sleep with him right away. I dont know guys, I’m just feeling a little .. useless? hurt? regret? I dunno, I just know it doesn’t feel worth it 🙁
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